During the last couple of years of his life Tom began a study of Buddhism. This helped him. He became a much more thoughtful individual. It was so nice to see him striving for self-knowledge. He found comfort in his quest for knowledge. I think he felt like he had finally found people that had had thoughts that he hadn’t. He had a tremendous respect for the thoughts themselves and the individuals that had had them.
I work in Sausalito on the third floor of the building. Tom would drive up in front of my building, double park, and jump out of his car and yell “Lisa”. I’d open my sliding glass door and step out onto the balcony I’d arrange to meet him for a conversation at the park 2 blocks from my office. We would sit and discuss Buddhism interspersed with whatever rant he was fighting down that day. Self-knowledge doesn’t come overnight and he often had to rant about his life before he could gather himself and get back to topic. I will miss his drive by visits. Who would have ever guessed that Tom and I could have found such peace with one another?
I take comfort and satisfaction that Tom was seriously studying Buddhism as well as learning Spanish right up to the end.
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